Tuesday, April 1, 2014

A Good Day

     For the first time in a long time, I can say today was a good day. Really today should've been a long day. A tiring day. But it ended up being a good day.

     Today I helped give the writing STAAR to fourth graders. It's four hours of nerve racking silence. It wears you out. But really it wasn't bad. Both fourth grade classes were together in the music room, so Elizabeth and I administered the test together. It was nice being with another teacher and great friend for the entire time. 

     The school provided breakfast, snacks, and lunch for the teachers. When school was over, Logan and I ate lunch with some teachers. A lot of them aren't people I get to spend a whole lot of time with because of our schedules. We laughed. We joked. It really was a good time. 

     Then the boys and I came home. Lucas made it all the way to the top of the clip chart for his good behavior at school today. Logan said, "Is that April Fools?" when he told us. Lucas's response was a defensive, "No! I did that today!". We relaxed this afternoon. I walked while the boys rode their bikes around the neighborhood. 

     Elizabeth and I were texting earlier and I was smiling. My mom told me it had been a long time since she has seen me smile that much. Genuinely smile. 

     I talked to Joshua earlier and I told him I was actually having a good day. I told him I feel guilty about that. He told me I shouldn't. Because good days don't mean I've forgotten our baby. Because I haven't. It just means I'm healing and moving forward. I'm so thankful that Joshua can always help give me the perspective I need.

     I still thought about my baby throughout the day, just like I think about the boys throughout the day. But I was filled with more happiness than sadness. Tonight's bedtime devotional was about thankfulness. I told the boys we were just going to pray and thank God for something tonight. Lucas thanked God that he made it to the top of the behavior clip chart today. And Logan thanked God for his parents and his mommy's smile. Today was a good day indeed.

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