From Mess to Masterpiece

     This week in Bible study, one of our chapters was about how God transforms the messes in our lives to masterpieces to use for His glory. To me, trying for 3 years to get pregnant and then losing my baby at 14 weeks into my pregnancy is a mess. A big mess. And I've felt like a big mess as I grieve my loss along with my husband and boys. This baby was loved and prayed for long before it was ever conceived.

     As I cling to the truth in God's Word and allow Him to transform me to look more like Jesus, a masterpiece is emerging from the mess. My faith has been strengthened as I walk this journey. Since becoming a parent, the absolute worst thing I thought could ever happen to me would be to lose a child. And it is absolutely the most difficult thing I have been through in my life. But I have learned from this journey that Jesus truly is enough for me. He is the Sustain-er of my life. If I have Jesus, I have what I need to complete any journey He takes me on. He is my all in all. I'm not sure exactly where I would be today without Him, but I know it would be a dark, dark place. Friends have said over and over how amazing and strong I am as I grieve my baby. That is not true. I'm not amazing or strong, but my Jesus is both amazing and strong and I as cling to Him, He infuses me with His strength.

     While the masterpiece that He is making from this mess of miscarriage is not complete, I trust that He will continue the transformation process. Glory has been brought to Him from this loss already, but I also know there is much more glory to be brought to Him through this mess. Thank You, Jesus turning messes into masterpieces. 

"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus,

so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago."

Ephesians 2:10 (NLT)